Just when you think life is finally taking a turn for the better and you can see the light at the end of the tunnel, you get punched in the face and are down again. Thats what it has been like for me in the past week or two. Things were showing signs of pro actively getting better and I could breathe again. Now, once again I don’t know, I am just at the point of slamming my head into a pillow and begging The Lord for help because I honestly don’t know what else to do or where else to go. Everyday, more and more I am wondering why God has me where I am at and how much longer I will be here for, and since it really isn’t obvious I will be blunt and say I’m talking about my job. I just feel like its going no where for me and I don’t know how to give it a boost up. It is so frustrating. Every time I give it my all and try, and try again I just seem to end up at the same spot. I have already seeked helped from co-workers around me to help but nothing really just seems to spark. I want to believe that this could lead to bigger and better things for me, but the road is so rough right now that believing doesn’t seem like its enough anymore. And having a job that your drastically losing passion for and have no confidence in really drags you down, I am finding that out first hand. It is so hard sometimes to keep my head up and keep pushing forward in all this when all I can see is fog in front of me. I guess I just have to keep praying and believe that The Lord will show me what needs to be seen, until then I will just have to suck it up..I mean what else can I do?